your dreams take on different forms
you may act impertinently toward your dreams, but they show up in unexpected places. you’re living them more than you think.
In childhood, I always wanted to be a movie director, writer, poet, or musician. I didn’t quite imagine B2B AI SaaS founder (lmao).
[Storyboarding for my portfolio launch video (did quite well on linkedin)]
My friend once explained pipe dreams to me: dreams that eventually become unattainable. We start with a motley of hopes, like landing that dream company (attainable) or becoming a Grammy Award-winning artist (seemingly out of reach). Over time, some dreams are prioritized, and others quietly become pipe dreams. Which, as my friend said, might have been better left as dreams anyway, for the idealism they carried.
Recently, I was having a conversation with that same friend about how, along the journey, you become all of them. You assume them in fleeting, instantaneous moments. Kind of like Everything Everywhere All at Once, when Kung Fu Evelyn’s skills get transferred to regular Evelyn.
In some nearest-node alternate reality, I, Jia, am a movie director. And when I script a video, I close my eyes and sit in a director’s chair. In another reality, I’m a musician. As I build my codebase, I piece together the melody of the product.
As I type this on a mattress in Twin Peaks, I’m also in a café in New York, as an aspiring novelist.
Of course, none of these skills are quite where I’d like them to be yet, but the feeling itself is enough. It’s beautiful to think you can be a collage of everything you could’ve been, existing in parallel as you are now, already.
Recent songs:
Julia by Jeremy Zucker
Clair de Lune by Claude Debussy
Intro by Ariana Grande (My Everything version)
the older you get the less time you have to expriment, fail, and try new thngs. goals like becoming a famous actor somewhat redirect but i dont think you can truly ever dissolve a dream. while you may not reach the great extent of it, if you look hard enough a part of it is in your current goal and dream.
This is exactly how I feel too. There are so many things to try out, learn and experience that it isn't possible to live all those lives up to professional standards but even showing up with something small like making a sketch technically does make us an artist. Instead of reading too deep into the labels we can maybe just experience the activities without any pressure.